sweethome
aaah. it's good to be home, tho I'm jetlagged -- i think i passed out at 8 or 9pm last night and woke up at 4am this morning -- must be all those babies I was hanging out with...

despite having a billion things to do, here i am, blogging away. if previous experience is any example, my trip photos should be up in, oh, about a year. so look out for those.

had a lovely trip -- can't believe how much i needed the vacation, tho my sleep never got normal, and so here i sit bleary and a bit odd. but then, that's me most days, isn't it? i know i'm more at home in sf, when i'm looking forward to gutripping coffee from up the street, and when the fog actually feels refreshing. the summer weather was nice, but i did spend a lot of time lingering in doorways of airconditioned offices and stores. do miss that life in tanktops and shorts thing tho.

got more advice from chris on poetry and art. didn't realize that poetry is even less well-paying than painting. tho i'm not making money painting, so mebbe i'll become a wordsmith at this late date. had a really good time with all sorts of parents and homeowners disguised as my friends. funny how everyone else keeps growing up, while i keep regressing...

and in sf news, the dream house proved to be a mirage after all. funny too how even if the feeling is somewhat mutual, rejection can still be a bummer. so i'm back at square one, tho a bit clearer about what i want in my future house (basically, all the space/convenience i have now, with a nicer roommate). but the good thing is -- i might bet paid to learn how to train doggies! (my poor parents. i was so close to being a good little corporate cog). more on that when i know more. still might all evaporate, as things can do. but can you believe that they pay people to play with dogs??? oh, i tried to be a good serious adult in the workforce, but somehow, i just keep ending up in improbably fun jobs (low paying, grueling for other reasons, but fun nonetheless).

seems that my arrested development (whatever happened to them, anyway?) is doomed to continue awhile.

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:: Monday, August 27, 2001 ::

noho and such
so the wedding went off without a hitch (there's a joke in there somewhere...)

had a brush with fame -- hillary price of "rhymes with orange" attended the shebang, and not only is her comic great, she provided us with some nice little stogies (sp?). don't think i'll make it into the old boys club, but hell, i was having too much fun for that anyways.
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more fame
tonight, i am at the happy home of lisa and chris -- not only is chris this week's author for the "from the trenches" piece in red herring, but he's also the author of this month's cover article (not on their website yet -- check out the sept issue now!).

they live in a cute apt with a great quote painted along the wall:
"If one advances confidently in the direction of their dreams, and endeavors to live the life which they have imagined, they will meet with a success unexpected in common hours."
- Thoreau
spent a very pleasant evening over risotto with lisa, chris and gracie (their sweet lillone). risotto with fake chicken soup and chips is pretty good (had a bit off gracie's plate). thanks to lisa, my next crackpot sceme to make ends meet is ready -- we'll see if it works. even had breakfast with miz kccouch -- soon to be famous, if not already. good afternoon/evening with kel, jo and tati tati tati! oberon is also a sweet dog, but tati will always be the best black fuzzy beastie.

more summer laziness tomorrow, then back home to the usual nonsense. can't wait, tho it's been a lovely trip.

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:: Saturday, August 25, 2001 ::

oh well
having a very nice time at stef and melys' wedding -- gorgeous summer livin! -- barefoot and playing in the sun! -- hiking, lotsa nothing, time passing by in a blur...

but i think i just got mistaken for the help. well, not so shocked. was waiting for it, a bit. and it wasn't really so overt. mebbe i just imagined it.

like i said, oh well... still a nice time all in all.

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:: Thursday, August 23, 2001 ::

foodle
[thanks to sari'n'ken for the word...]

took rte 1 home today from pt reyes. realized that much of what I hate about commuting is the sheer tedium of the journey. and what i love about roadtrips is seeing new stuff every day.

so I cruised past the spot where I watched the salmon swim up stream last year -- emylene got some great photos of the crazy fish. moley was none too impressed with the show -- mainly she noticed her leash and was bored.

saw the town sign for dogtown -- 30 people -- you think they'd let me stay awhile? who'd notice a freak like me in that crowd? well, any town called dogtown is good in my book.

then past the turn off for bolinas, with its sign notoriously absent. I was tempted to have a coffee in bolinas, but was feeling a little sad without my mo, so I pressed on. bolinas, just as my dogbook noted, is filled with dogs -- mainly black -- cruising the streets nonchalantly, and romping on the beach happily. my first trip out to bolinas was with bleu, mina, and satch. we went beachcombing (found a cool skull and tons of shells), laughed at the inexplicable "groin" sign in the bay, and saw tons of dogs. there was some band bleu loved playing in town, and in all, it felt wonderfully adventuresome and cosy.

and the views (!!!) -- curling along the water, gorgeous cliffs, idiot tourists. it was a great way to get home. I do love this place. in this visceral gut wrenching way that makes me cry. so mebbe this is what -home- feels like? loving the land itself, landscapes that move me beyond awe to yearning. starting to dream and see this expanse on my eyelids. finally it's starting to sink in and feel real.

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bob
bobcat! I think that's what I saw, anyway (to the agreement of four other hikers who saw the same beastie). finally took some time last night after werk to go for a strolly-wole, and was pleasantly surprised by the bobcat dashing away from me up the path. there was no way I could keep up, so I mainly got a view of his rear end as he bobbed off (really, it was bobbing!). pretty cool. so far, I've seen more cool animals in a summer than I have in ages. gonna try and keep up the walking. it's hard to take the time, when all I wanna do is go home. but it's a good lesson in enjoying the here and now...
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art-mo
thinking more about having a show at my place -- as a farewell (hopefully I will find a new home soonish) to my faithful living space of 5 years, and as a ceremony for satchmo. I never did anything publicly for her, and it would be a nice way to sit and remember her fondly. especailly as leaving my home is complicated by my missing the very shape and heft of a place imbued with her doggly presence.

plus, there's nothing like a party, good friends, and good food to make for a fitting farewell to the mole-ster. mebbe I'll collect donations and buy her a brick on the wall at the spca. mebbe I'll collect donations and start a pigdog foundation for ailing dogs. who knows.

in any case, it would be a good way for me to surround myself with a little love and use that to help navigate this treacherous letting go thing.
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calgon
aaah. I'm not much of a bather (showers, yes, so don't fret), and last night I took a hothotHOT bath -- bubbles and all. I still got bored fairly quickly (hard to read a book without destroying it), but for a minit or two, I managed to ((((relax)))). it was heavenly. suddenly I get what the fuss about bathtubs is all about. this woman at werk has a bathtub in her living room. now that's living...

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:: Wednesday, August 22, 2001 ::

hounds of love
bit calmer, mainly cuz i'm at work, and a bit caffeine deprived. still, spent some time surfing and looking at doggies yesterday (if I surf on worktime, and I work for myself, should I feel guilty? should I worry if I do?) -- and was sucked in by all the sweet happy faces. it'll be good to have a familiar once again. a companion to remind me of the important things (food, sleep, walkies) and to keep me balanced. but perhaps that's enough on hounds for now.
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wrap
so I'm wrapping up so many things right now. weird to have so much change at once. throws me into a bit of a frenzy. but it's also good. soon the pt reyes gig will be up -- had a great class this weekend -- check them out if you get the chance. good oysters and good company. pretty good weekend, all-in-all.

hate to give up my place, as imperfect as it is, it's letting go (which we've established that I'm bad at). and it's moley's last home. I'm hoping to have an informal little show there before I go -- all about moley, of course. a tribute and ceremony -- since I didn't have anything to mark her passing (publicly, at least).

not to be negative, but it irks me a bit that I travel for all these weddings (both gay and straight) -- these milestones in people's lives -- and my life, as varied and full of damn growth as it is, doesn't receive the same attention. true, I could invite folks for my latest milestone (completing traffic school? moley's passing? another successful month with dees?), and then see if people would flock to it, but it just doesn't feel the same. ok, enough rant.

so things are in flux. ooh forgot how much I like that word. flux flux flux flux flux flux... so forgive the tedious entries (see why I hadn't been posting for awhile?). I'll have some glimmer of inspiration soon, hopefully.

in the meantime, keep an eye out for gainful employment and lovely homes. I'd like one of each (or more...).

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:: Tuesday, August 21, 2001 ::

puppy love
puppy puppy puppy puppy puppy puppy puppy puppy puppy puppy puppy puppy puppy

soon soon soon. can hardly stand it. trying to hold out till I'm done with my travels in the next few months (weddings and the like). but it's getting hard. my sweet neighbor keeps telling me about perfect dogs (she works at a shelter in town). I'm gonna hafta go and check out chicken and cat -- a brother and sister duo -- chihuahua/pit bull mixes, but I'm trying to wait a little.

this is just like being 8 again, and the only thing in the world I want (well, so to speak) is a houndly companion. I don't remember a time when I didn't have this all-consuming obsession, but then, I often don't remember yesterday. with any luck it'll all work out soon. meanwhile, I browse online for puppies (pretty much impossible for me to visit a shelter in this state).

sigh. stinky destructive little fuzzbuckets...

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cheap plastic and outta control

he's grumpy, yet hopeful; gets drunk on milk, is hot all the time, and sleeps a lot. what's not to like???

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:: Wednesday, August 15, 2001 ::

miss mo
still missing the sweet moleywole. letting go was never my forte. and it's a bit boring to be dog-less. i'd meant to travel around the world, ride my motorbike more, do things with my dog-free life, but mainly, i just yearn for puppy bellies, and dog ears -- you know that popcorn/frito smell of puppy feet and ears. the soft round bellies of contented and full dogs. that kinda thing. thought i'd wait a year, but i found myseld visiting THREE shelters today to just look at the dogs. i'm smitten with about ten of them, but remarkably came home without a pooch.

the spca -- tho a good organization -- made me feel a bit trapped. bureacracy and so many hoops to jump through. all for good reason, to make sure that the animals are sucessfully placed in a home, but made me feel like a cog in a very pretty wheel. their new building is gorgeous, and there seems to be a rather large volunteer corps, but it all felt a little sterile.

and i know everyone thinks that *they* are a good dog owner, but i wanted to jump up and down and proclaim -- really, i am really! i'd gladly go bankrupt for a dog, rather than give them up. but i didn't. i just filled out paperwork so they'd let me play with the dogs, and read the special adoption criteria ($500K liability/renter's insurance!) and promptly fell in love with many many dogs. aah. not a bad day, really.

well, probably good to take a deep breath and TRY to wait a little longer...

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:: Monday, August 13, 2001 ::

that's rich
here's what i'm worth: $2,376,430.00 huh. how bout that. the algorithm must be mildly offensive, but entertaining.

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more flattery
another site using my template, and with a sweet link and design credit to me to boot! plus a funny link to the site that tells you how much you're worth...

and kind thoughts and well wishes to the folks getting laid off a la jill (or quitting like mizbleumagoo -- woohoo!)-- mebbe the mario andretti speedmart is hiring? definitely time to think about all getting jobs at the same coffeeshop or something, eh?

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:: Friday, August 10, 2001 ::

flattery will get you everywhere
shtanks to jill fer making my day. apologies for the silent ether on my end. been swampy/busy and a bit hermit-like. few good reads have been: poisonwood bible by barbara kingsolver and song of solomon by toni morrison. both amazing books -- great escape from life, and just amazing wordsmiths both. titles that seemed fitting: things fall apart by chinua achebe and briefing for a decent into hell by doris lessing. achebe's book is brilliant -- read it. just starting on lessing, and fear i may not make it out (is an "inner space" voyage into the mind of a madman really so wise, when we're all mad and on the verge as it is???).

will get cracking on the swag, and yes, of course i take paypal.

new question: anybody know a good sticker printing vendor? cool, union, environmental, cheap... (I can dream about it).

had another idea for my spurious contest series, so i'll get to that soon too. also been working on plenty for pro bono projects -- as my cousin pointed out i must like what i do enough to do it for free, cuz, uh, i am (doing it for free, that is -- no, i don't have time for more pro bono werk, sorry).

two things that i'm rather proud of:
my template won the blogger template design contest! -- you can see what i submitted here (they changed it a bit), and here's one in use (it's so cute!).

the other is a cd cover i'm working on for green girl records. so far i've just finished the illustration, but i'm in love with the kids. mebbe i am maternal, after all. guess i'd better get back to werk, and thanks for the kick in the pants, jill, will try to be less lax in my blogging duties...

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:: Tuesday, August 07, 2001 ::

props & shops
what to do when yer fave blog doesn't update? rail at the skies? rock back and forth hugging your knees in a corner? cry into your martini, double-olives? no—you take matters onto your own keys ... fans do not fear ... the madly-skilled ewee lives! or at least, was sighted [as a vision of blazing pulchritude, at that, in some classy PVC....] on july 29 at the e'er-cozy dore alley street fair....
and, yeah, are you kidding me? a cool $20 is hella reasonable for garb 'n' things spawned by dogmo designs ... one baby-T, XS, please—and do you take paypal? danke.

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